Progress in the Potty

OK so my Emanuel, who is three, is finally somewhat getting the concept of going to the potty. If we having running around the house with no diaper on he knows to go pipi in the bathroom, and the same for number two, but the moment that we put underwear or pants or anything on him he goes on himself. Since we don't want to go thru the whole cleaning the carpet thing at the time we just leave him to run around like Donald Duck, no pants and a shirt, as long as we are here in the house. Maybe it is our fault that he hasn't been potty trained yet, but after working all day and having a husband with severe back pain, who wants to be constantly on their hands and knees cleaning a carpet. My house after constant cleaning is finally going back to smelling "normal" ( what ever that is) again, I don't know if I can live with the same smell we had a few weeks ago.

Speaking of smells, I have become a huge fan of the show Clean House. In case you are not familiar with the show, is about a group of people who go into your cluttered house, convince you to get rid of all of your crap, so they can sell it at a yard sale, and then the money they make they match it and use it to give your house a makeover. Well they usually only work in the Los Angeles area but once a year they hold the messiest house in America contest where people from all over the country send them videos of their dirty, messy home. They do the same thing but instead of using the money from the yard sale to redo the house, they give the money to charity of your choice and the show will do the whole make over for you for free. This year the family that won was truly disgusting. It was a couple that lived in complete filth. The husband had a back problem and used that as an excuse to take on "hobbies". These "hobbies" included everything from computers, to airplanes to everything else you can think off. The problem is that with these hobbies, he would bring into the house everything he found on the street, into the house. The wife not only did not put her foot down, she also did not clean after them. For instance, the bathroom had not been clean for what she said to have been a whole month ( it looked like it had not been cleaned in SEVERAL months) the kitchen had one of those fly strips hanging from the ceiling, full of flies, and her excuse for not removing the strip she was to short and couldn't reach it. But what got to me was the fact that the cast kept talking about this smell from the moment they came to the house. Then when they opened a closet where they used to use to keep their cat litter at, they couldn't take it anymore. Well come to find out they didn't have a litter, they would just let the cat poop all over the closet and they never cleaned it. The wife's excuse for not cleaning? she feels depressed for not being able to have a kid and so she doesn't see the reason why she should keep the house clean. Ummmm how about for sanitary reasons? how about just so you can feel better? how about in the event that you decide to adopt a child you can give that child a CLEAN home. I'm sorry, but being depressed is no excuse to live like that. I lived thru depression myself and I even tho I didn't keep my house as clean as a whistle, I didn't keep it disgusting either. Ok so sometimes you don't feel like cleaning, but if you don't, then don't make a mess!!!!!! I just don't see how being depressed is justification for living in those conditions. And if you are able to realize that you are that depressed, then you should be able to do something about it like seeking professional help. It was so bad that even her three yr old niece asked her why is your house so dirty? yuk!!!!

Well any who you guys should check out the show if you haven't already and check out all the stuff that this guys do for people who have lost control of their home. Alright I'm going to take a nap now because I'm very tired I've been up since very early. peace, love and Souuuuuuuuuuuul.

quick post

Ok i'm at work and I'm supposed to be back I just wanted to update you guys on what is going on in my life right now. So I joined a gym like 2 miles away from my house last week I've been going 3 times a week religiously. I love it specially since my little ones can stay with daddy playing in the outdoor water park or the indoor one while mama goes and gets her butt in shape. Last week it was our friend's Charlie's graduation party and I danced so much i'm still feeling it. I think I have a picture here let me check...



Yup here it is. I look horrible as usual but my boys look great and I guess that's what counts. I gotta go backbut i'll try to post some more this weekend. luv you all.

Peace, love, and souuuuuul.

Just Chillin'

Wow I'm having one of those very rare mornings where the kids are still sleeping and so is DH, and I'm just sitting here relaxing listening to some music, eating rice crispies treats with peanut butter and chocolate and just surfing the net like crazy. This NEVER happens anymore. But I made sure I put the kids down late so they can sleep in a little. Of course DH woke me today like at 6:00 cause Alex was cold and he wanted me to cover him.I thought I was cool with that becuase it is the weekend I can always take a nap latter on. Had it been a weekday, I would have had to murder him. Anywho, I have been trying to get the hang of this photoshop thing that I got so I can start making new desings for my t-shirts and for the life I just can get it. I have gotten so stupid ever since I turned 30!! I need to have someone sit down with me and show me how to work this joint because it is frustrating me. I thought about getting the Photoshop for Dummies book but I don't have time to read anymore and even if i did I'm not going to retain anything cause I'm so freaking tired all of time.

Speaking of how tired I am, my body has been hurting a little. I think a lot of it is because of how overweight I which is why today I'm going to join the gym and force myself to work out after work. I don't know how the hell I'm going to do it with my foot that hurts and gets swollen all the time. I want to see if we take the boys to the pool today they were here all day long. And I"m going to start posting pictures of the kiddies here also is about time those of you who have not seen my kids meet them. ok that's all for today folks. once you have finished reading my nonsense,er, posts please drop me line so I would know how many people are actually reading this. ok everyone, peace, love and souuuuuuuul.

it's not easy being green

Green seems to be the color of the past two years. Everywhere you go there is is something about how we need to go green, how are vaccines need to be green ( whatever that means) our cars, nurseries, toys blah blah blah. Don't get me wrong, I truly believe that we need to do something to slow down the about our planet's destruction. However this whole green thing is making me sick already. First of all, big corporations have this green thing going on but, is not ike they make the "green" things any cheaper. One good example is the disposible diapers that dissolve once is thrown out, great idea right? but has anybody looked at the prices of those diapers? hey are ridiculously high. Same thing goes for Organic food. I would love to support my local farmers, give my children food that is not full of crap, but who the hell can afford those prices? Everything organic is like double the price of the regular stuff. It's no wonder celebrities are so gone ho about the green life, they are the only ones that can afford it!!!. I would love to do something for our planet, and give my children something that I belief is better for them, but seriously how can I do that if is not made accessable to me? Right now the only thing I can do is breastfeed my little one, and yell at my husband for leaving the lights on. So if anybody who can do about those high prices for organic stuff is reading this, ( I doubt it but hey is worth a try) please don't think that us middle class folks don't care, we just can't afford to do much for our planet. Ok guys I'm off to play a little bit with my new Photoshop thing. So take care Peace. Love and Souuuuuuuul.

Mental Illness

Mental illnes
I have been surrounded by people with mental illness. First of there is me, I was diagnosed with post partum 8 months after my son was born. Then there was my grandmother who suffered from alzhaimers, one of my dearests friends and her brother also suffere from depression, my sister in law is bipolar and of course my mom whose long battle with depression has driven her to become a very violent person. With so many people all women with the exception of one, suffering from so many forms of mental illness I wonder, who is doing something about it? What kind of research is being done by the government to see how we can stop this? I'm glad to see medication out there but I don't see how is really doing much. For instance my homegirl has been battleling with depression for years. She has gone thru every medication imaginable and right now she's doing worse than before.
I started thinking about all of this because I haven't been feeling too well lately but I'm tired of having to take my Zoloft everyday and I keep thinkg that there has to be something out there or someone has to come up with something to help us get rid of this damn thing that is keeping us from enjoying all of the things around us. It keeps me from being the mom that I want to be, the wife that I should be and the daughter that my mom deserves. Ok that's my rant for the day take care people peace, love and souuuuuuuul.Emma Castro

Free time at work

all the systems at work went down and now we don't have anything to do so I decided to update my blog. So I'm super duper happy because DH finally got his settlement money and now we have paid off all of our debts yahoooo!!!! So now we are going to be able to buy our own home. I can't wait. and of course, I have been spoiling myself a little bit becuawse dag on it I deserve!!!. ok I now have to go back to work I will update you all with more stuff during the weekend smooches

Hectic week

Oh my gosh, this has been a very hectic week already at work. I'm trying to show that I care a little more about this job even tho I really don't so I'm kinda working even harder to see if I can get some sort of promotion. Anywho, after work yesterday we took the kids to the playground at the mall cause it's too freaking hot here in Texas so there is no way we are going outside unless we are at the pool. After that I forgot that we had to pick up some clothes for my son at my friend's house and once we got there my husband wouldnt' shut up he kept talking and talking. and of course Emanuel was afraid of my friend's dog and he kept SCREAMING whenever the dog came near him. Poor Alex who was sleeping got a very rude awakening by getting completely licked by the stupid dog ( yuk!!) by the time we got home it was 10:00 Alex was up so I had to put him to sleep while Emanuel decided to take all of his new clothes and throw them on the floor -sight-. I put him to bed and started working on a design for a new client and that took me to like 12:30 am and of course I had to wake up at 6:00 am to do it all over again. I'm going straight home today to do a few more designs and then I'm going to chilax. alright people signing out for now Peace, love and souuuuuul